So as many know it was Father's Day here in North America this past Sunday, and if it hadn't been for all the posts wishing father-like figures a happy day, it would have gone right past me. I'm surprised at myself and not. Since cutting my own father out of my life to save my … Continue reading Parental Unit Day – Father Figure Version
Well that takes some of the pressure off!
So I have finally, after 8 months of unemployment stress, landed a new job. It came as a bit of a shock, to be honest, I thought for that particular interview I had completely blown it and kind of wrote it off as a lost opportunity. Apparently, they felt differently. When the HR manager called … Continue reading Well that takes some of the pressure off!
When panic strikes
So yeah, I've been less than a little delinquent with keeping up on my blog. As much as I know that writing is one of the things that can help me cope with my bipolar disorder and get the whirling thoughts out of my brain and dumped somewhere useful, I find it hard to sometimes … Continue reading When panic strikes
So I have a show tomorrow night and the steady waves of nervousness have been washing over me for the last couple of days. Seriously, I can get nervous for a show a good week before a performance - that's usually when it hits me that what I've been playing at in my den for … Continue reading Performance Anxiety
One big part of being unemployed is feeling the lack of purpose. Oh sure, there's housework that can be done and errands to run but a truly, overarching purpose? Not so much. I've been doing some casual freelance for a former manager (who doesn't have the budget to hire me full-time - bugger!) and I … Continue reading Purpose
The Jinx Factor
I'm a big believer in the jinx factor. That means I fear sharing good news in case it blows up in my face. Seriously, I rarely if ever share any news that's positive unless I am 100%, signed, sealed and delivered sure it's a done thing. This is very frustrating for those around me at … Continue reading The Jinx Factor
The Mourning Process
I can hardly believe it's been a whole 5 months since I was booted from the best job I ever had thanks to a really bad year for me mental health-wise. While angry at how the company handled my dismissal (so soon really after returning to work full-time and becoming productive and happy in my … Continue reading The Mourning Process
Who needs sleep?
Sleep has been an elusive entity again lately. It's been sporadic and my usual tricks to get to sleep or back to sleep when I wake up aren't working anymore. I tried melaleuca, and it was working famously, but after a few weeks I felt odd, and worried it was interfering with my other meds. … Continue reading Who needs sleep?
All hail the sloth!
Today is the first day I've been up and about in three days. The entire weekend, including Friday, I was in my bed in my pjs, just napping, reading, and doing some meditations. I just had no energy or desire to get up and out, didn't even feel like doing any dance practice and I … Continue reading All hail the sloth!
My brain is having a hard time today. My anxiety has been peaking since I woke up this morning and I've taken what I lovingly call my emergency pills to try to get the thundering in my chest to slow down. It's not helping that it's a cloudy, rainy day today. I do have dance … Continue reading Spinning thoughts